St.Harma.Street

Frustration, that is the state I find myself in today.  The main sources of my unhappiness are twofold.  First my investment strategy.  I have invested everything in an oil company called Canargo, amex ticker symbol CNR.  They are sitting on a potentially huge oilfield in the former soviet republic of Georgia.

The oil well got blocked last Xmas and now this week they have finished an acid treatment program to unblock the well and it failed, so now the stock went down, I bought a shitload at 1.08$ a share and now it stands at .92$ cents and I will be forced to wait several more months before they got the new heavy equipment on site to unblock the well : bummer !   My second frustration is that I am trying to conquer a wonderful Ukrainian girl called Masha, I have been looking for a new wife now for 3 years and now she is the first girl I really get excited about in all that period.  She is 25, cute, smart and pretty and likes all the stuff I like , she even loves to ski.  We exchanged 3 emails and now I am waiting for her response, I last wrote her on Monday and now I am so nervous waiting for her email to arrive.  I feel like a teenager who is in love and I feel really frustrated that she hasn't written back, but I know that she will only be able to write me from internetcafe, so I got to be patient !  If she keeps on writing I will go and visit her in June or July, she already wrote she wants to meet so I really hope that this will work out because I am really tired of being single !

since my last post on this blog, guess I am not made out of "blogger "material !

Basically not much happened in 2006.  I lost a shitload of money on bad stocks, I mean if I bought an oil company stock there was no oil to be found, if I bought a pharmaceutical company stock then their medicine didn't work, so everything I bought sank faster than the Titanic.  Then in  june 2006 I had to pay 3000 euro in extra taxes dating back to my divorce of 2004 and that really pissed me of so in august I just hopped on a plane and went to live in Thailand for 3 weeks.  I checked into the Loma Hotel in Pattaya and spent the whole 3 weeks in the same place.  The whole day I could be found next to the pool and at 9 pm I went into town for diner and then enjoyed the infamous nightlife of Pattaya.  Of course it is not the best place in Thailand but at that time it was for me, my hotelroom was more like a small apartment with airco, satellite tv, fridge and a nice terrace and that for only 17 euro a night including breakfast !

For a similar style hotel on the Thai islands like Ko Samui I would have to pay 50 euro a night, so that's why I stayed in Pattaya.  The Big C shopping mall was my favorite hangout, I found a steak house where a sirloin steak, with french fries and a mixed salad only cost 2 euro, catching a movie was also only 2 euro !

And the Japanese sushi place on the ground floor is also worth a visit !

After diner I disappeared into the night life, visiting gogo bars, beer bars, discos, then around 3 in the morning I usually  walked (or zigzagged) back home after too many beers ! I really had a good time there on my own, a good place to forget about all my worries, especially for divorced men who want a change of scenery !

I know I have been bad again for not updating this blog, guess I am not really a blogger.
However, I wonder if there is anyone out there who is still interested in reading about my quest in finding a new love.  I just finished a totally insane 1 month trip in the Ukraine starting in Kiev, Odessa, Yalta and ending in Dnipropretrovsk.  So if anynone wants to read about my adventures I will write down my travel story, so leave a small message in the comments or send me an email, I am just wondering if there are any readers left if there is even 1 reader left I will write down my travelstory.  The photo is a pic of me and my friend Yulia.

Last week I lost a piece of a tooth and today I was eating cherries and I broke another tooth, I am really falling apart.  Last week I had some trouble at work and I also got stuck in a huge traffic jam, sometimes I wish that I just would drop dead and get it over with.  Since my divorce I really haven't been enjoying life anymore like I used to.  Using the internet or newspaper ads in order to find a "dreamwife" turns out to be not as easy at it looks.
It is like walking through a minefield, there are pitfalls everywhere.
A couple of weeks ago I bought the address of an Ukrainian girl who looked really pretty and fun, full of life but when she sent me some new pics she suddenly looked more dangerous and calculated, not really what I am looking for, so another disappointment.  Today I received an email from that Nadya girl who worked as a translator in that agency where I bought the address of Nastya and instead of giving me her address she acted like she was Nastya and so I wasted several months emailing and phoning Nadya thinking she was Nastya and today Nadya emails me asking why I don't write to her anymore.
Well Nadya, it might have something to do with you taking over Nastya's identity and wasting my time, cheating is not a good starting point for any relationship.  Natalia from Ukraine who came to visit me last year wants to visit me again next month so I am looking forward to seeing her again, hopefully she can get a visa quicker than last year.  Natalia is a great person but I am just not in love with her (yet), I really hope to fall in love again one more time in my life, to have that childish feeling of being in love, I am a 39 year old fart, so time is running out quickly.

If there is a God out there he must really hate me and He must really love jurking my chain.
Anything that CAN go wrong DOES go wrong these days.  First of all I love gmail, the free emailservice from google, I can use it in msoutlook pop3 and I never had any problems with it, until today, it just is totally out of order, not even the webbased gmail works, major bummer dude !!!   Some other weird shit that happened : remember my dream girl Anastasia who suddenly stopped writing me last month after I had asked her to send some pics of her and her family.
I was really wild about that chick so this morning I decided to send her an sms to ask her why she had stopped writing me, then after a couple of minutes I received a reply on my mobile phone, she told me that she didn't want to lie to me, so I sent another sms, asking her about what she had lied.  Then she replied that the real Anastasia was not interested in me and that her name was Nadya and that she had been given the letter that I had sent to Anastasia and that she had acted as if she was Anastasia, that worked well until I asked for more photos which of course she couldn't mail me so she freaked and stopped writing me.   So her real name is Nadya, anyway on the phone she sounded allright, she spoke very good English and German, so maybe this might work out in the end, I have emailed her and asked her for some pics.  No news from Tanya from Latvia, Darya's schoolfriend, she was very happy with my letter but she never wrote me back.  I had put in some new ads and some women reacted, one chick who looks like Segourney Weaver, weird.   Of course all these women who write want to have children, a total nightmare, I never even once considered having children, and that is something that women really don't get, men don't want children they just want sex, at least I do and I am sure that most men who have children really regret it, if I ever produce a child then it will be the price that I will pay to get the woman of my dreams, for example for that Anastasia I would have paid that price.  So my life is pretty much a pool of misery, I hope yours is better, lol !  Well, things could be worse, I could get some deadly ilness or I could have been born in India or Africa or something, these people are really shit out of luck, for me there might still be some good times lurking behind the corner.
Sayonara !
Tommy Insano.

Today it was around 30°C here in Belgium, time to dust off the airco.  I got plenty of cold beer, wine and vodka in the fridge, so I will be allright.  I am really pissed off with Anastasia that  after our last conversation she just stopped writing me, so I guess that is another dream going down the drain.  Russia is a pain in the ass anyway, with all the paperwork in order to get a visa, which by the way cost a 100 euro a few years ago.  I sent the last email so if she doesn't write me back then she can kiss my big, white ass.  Never again I am going to slime up to a woman, I am willing to do an effort but only up to a certain level, so I consider Anastasia to be a total loss, I closed her file, next please !!!!
I have put in some new advertisements in Riga, Latvia to help me digest the loss of Nastya and also on the positive side a classmate of our guide Darya, a 23 year blond called Tanya is interested in me, so I wrote her and now I am waiting for proof of life : a photo with some more info about her and if she turns out to be my type of babe I will fly back to Riga asap, something I learnt the hard way is never to worry about one specific woman because she will never be the last one, there are always new ones to discover.